The Reality

(Translated)

Actually I am not afraid of the reality at all, I am only scared that the fantasy immerses me deeply without letting me out.

Fantasies are fantastic, but the reality rules. I don't know started from when I decided to deal with pain in a sharp but short-term way instead of tedious torture, forcing myself to face the truth as soon as possible. I don't know if it is the right thing to do, but in this way I feel like I could balance the emotional and the rational me, and get back the innocence. Maybe deep in my heart, I believe this is the right choice.


Drown in this city with ecstasy but despair, finally I understand the favor of getting myself back, when facing the relationship, or facing the life. To some degree I'm kind of brainwashed by the lure of New York City, but no matter how much it hurts, I always pinch myself so that I could still stay awake. You know that, even I crave for the beauty of fantasy,  it could only happen in the dream.


I know you are the fantasy like this, so is he, and so is the world.

If there is no expectation, then there is no hurt. I gradually keep my emotion in a stable state. Even I know that there were things that proved my fantasy was coming true, but it cost too much, and I could not take it.


I don't really know what I am writing, or to whom I am writing, maybe it's just a transition period for reorganizing the mess I have had.

No matter what, I am trying to living in another way. So don't be afraid, though I cannot control if others are afraid or not, I'm just hoping to live more honestly.

Maybe it's pretentious to talk about life right now, but I think it's still a process of growth.


So I am sorry that things become like this, but meanwhile I feel so relieved.

And I think I love you. 

And I love this city as well. 

But maybe I love myself more than anything else.

Smile

It's just the matter of accepting the reality or not, lol

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Young folks listen up, this is where we are

Caught up in southern California with 

Nowhere to start, and you left some
So now what's here for me?
Yeah, I've had enough of him, 

still asking for your number
While we' reading your blog

年輕人，注意聽好了

這裡就是我們帶著毫無方向的迷失

被困住的南加州

而你也是罪魁禍首之一

所以現在呢，有什麼在等待我？

我已經受夠他

在我們邊窺伺著你的私生活時

還向你要電話

You know, my blues can't wake her,
My heart it can not break, and now

I carry sorrow
'Cause, hell, I cannot shake her, no
My world keeps turning
My heart it keeps on burning
And I know where to find her,
Just wanna see her smile again

Well, 我的憂鬱無法讓她清醒

但此刻我不能心碎

所以我背負著憂傷

因為，他媽的我居然撼動不了她

我的世界不斷旋轉著

而心也燒著傷疤

但我知道要去哪裡找到她

只為了再次看見她的笑顏


I got to dress sharp, you know I will
Give you what it takes
'Cause I'm not gonna be outdone

by those beautiful fakes
In your halo, there's gotta be Gold
I've got you waiting on
I'll step on a grenade so you can see I'm the bomb

我必須穿得潮入你眼，你知道我會這麼做的

你知道我會給你一切

即使需要代價

因為我才不會

被那些華而不實給打敗

在你的光環裡

一定有神聖的影子

我已經讓你等著看

當我踩上手榴彈時

你就會明暸我就是一顆炸彈

You know, my blues can't wake her,
My heart it can not break, and now

I carry sorrow
'Cause, hell, I cannot shake her, no
My world keeps turning
My heart it keeps on burning
And I know where to find her,
Just wanna see her smile again

Well, 但我的憂鬱無法讓她清醒

此刻我卻不能心碎

所以我背負著悲傷

因為，他媽的我居然撼動不了她

我的世界不斷旋轉著

而心也燒著傷疤

但我知道要去哪裡找到她

只為了再次看見她的笑顏

The night keeps falling
Her voice it keeps on calling'
We all carry sorrow
And hold on to tomorrow
'Cause the world keeps turning
And I will keep on learning
And I know where to find her
Just wanna see her smile again

夜晚再度降臨

她的聲音不斷在腦海裡迴響

你知道嗎？我們都背負著傷痛

然後再過下一個明天

因為世界不停轉動

而我還繼續在學習

只是我知道要去哪裡才能

再一次重溫她的笑容